Moots was great. There was a huge nazi-plot going on which really gave me the creeps (some people got too much creeps and didn't like it much) and we had a lot of emo-play around the self-chosen death of Kadlin (Cora's character).

A new meet is planned for this group on coming Sunday in Utrecht. I was really looking forward to that, until this afternoon.

Unfortunately this event gave me a bitter after taste when I posted the costs for the groceries of this event on the forum and I got a "this is way to expensive for what I used" reply. That in itself wasn't too bad, but after I explained it and dared to mention (sideways!) all the work that we put into our nice camp and how we are not charging fuel costs for the transport, we got a "I don't give a fuck about the camp" reply from the same person.

That hurt. Somehow, even though we didn't get a "thank you for bringing all that stuff" before either and people were obviously against putting work into making things look IC, I had hoped that people appreciated it. However, we only got "thank you"s and compliments from the other groups in our faction. And a "I don't give a shit, don't try to blackmail me with this" from a member of our own group.

The person also mentioned being fed up with all the hussle about the IC-ness of our camp every time. Well, I'm getting fed up with all the people that do not even try to make it look IC. I appreciated it when some people decided to go sleep OC and we could keep both tents nearly completely dressed up IC. I think it was better for all of us.

I regretted the choice of a few that wanted to eat with the catering, instead of with us from our campfire. However, it also gave us less of a cooking hassle, so in the end that was ok too. And even while I don't feel the same about "cooking in character takes too much time, it's not worth it", I accepted the fact that people didn't really appreciate the trouble we go through bringing the cooking supplies and Matthijs supervising the fire and dinner everytime. I was sad, but I think I handled it well enough.

I had hoped that it had gone better this time. After the Summoning I swore never to do it again if what happened there (us being left with lots of stuff to pack in the pouring rain) happened again. And behold, it didn't happen again this moots. Everything could be packed dry (or nearly, in case of the ground sheets). We actually left with a good feeling before it was full dark. And now that good feeling is gone too.

With Dummnoni dead or dying (SL couldn't handle the questions and constructive criticism of the players and they called it quits) Vortex was the only larp left where I play. However, with this kind of attitude and friction in the group, I'm about to quit it. Perhaps try the Children of Dela, though their group is really large as it is already. Or try one of the larps that I didn't try yet (charm, maerquin). Or just quit altogether.

However, there's still Matthijs to take into account. He likes his Vortex character. We'll have to think on this. For now, I'm just literally nauseous because of it all.