Did a little bit of spring cleaning last Sunday after sleeping in late (had a late balfolk on Saturday). At 12:00 or so I got up and felt all bouncy because of the bright sun outside and the awesome temperature (about 20 degrees Celsius). I tidied and cleaned both balconies and washed the windows on the north side of the apartment. Matthijs vacuum cleaned the house, which really needed it with two long haired people and two shedding cats. The rest of the day I spent on our biggest balcony in the sun. Prrrr.

A few weeks ago I filed a complaint with the local authority about a broken car standing on the parking lot and being used as a playground by children. Today the car was picked up and removed. Yay for that!

I have not been thinking about moving for a while now, which leaves me much more at ease and relaxed. Work is a bit agitating every now and again. Implementing preview-functionality had a lot more snags than I expected. However, apart from some sudden bouts of hysteria and drama I feel rather ok again.

Next Saturday Matthijs will give a presentation about his graduation work somewhere in Utrecht and I will attend a balfolk waltz workshop. That evening there's a ball too which we'll attend. Sunday is still free, perhaps I can work a bit on my new summer coat (which is the failed autumn coat taken apart again). We'll have to get to bed early because on Monday we're needed in Amsterdam for some consultation and we want to be there early.

This Friday I have another appointment with the Pearle in Ermelo. I got a new try-out lens with 0.5 strenght off from my cylindrical deviation, however now the axis is wrong. When I turn the lens a bit sideways I see well, when I let it sit like it is supposed to I don't even see well up close.

Next Tuesday an appointment with the dentist, biannual checkup. I don't think I have anything to worry about. In the evening finally a rehearsal again with my tiny role in it. And Queensday on Friday, a day off!

At bellydance class we're rehearsing a dance on "Ojos Asi" by Shakira. Perhaps we'll even perform the dance during the bellydance festival on the 2nd of July, but only when enough people have the guts.

A new LARP concept has been announced: taboo. It's a very primitive setting where curses come true through the sheer power of suggestion. I'm already looking forward to that when the first event is planned in October. Also I keep reading about Charm and I had wanted to go there but the balfolk came up (actually it was a whole festival with workshops, but we postponed decision making and subscribing to the point of no return). Perhaps I'll try next time, after the summer.

Not sure what it is, but I've been quite moody lately. This time it can't be the weather because that's been sunny enough. I think it's the mess in my head. Even since before Matthijs graduated I've wanted to move from Enschede to somewhere near Utrecht or Amersfoort into a nice real house (no apartment) with a garden and a shed. I have decorated and redecorated almost a hundred houses in my head since then and I just really want to get to it!

However there's lots of issues to wade through first. Matthijs needs to get a job so that we can get a decent mortgage, which brings all kinds of questions (where, what, how, when etc.). Then there's the whole finding-a-nice-place-in-a-nice-neighborhood thing for which we've made two tours yet: one through part of Utrecht and one long one through a large part of Amersfoort. (Amersfoort wins). There's all kinds of financial blah to make sure off that I just can't wrap my brain around. It feels like we're getting nowhere.

I've tried to apiece myself by crafting and sewing and though it satisfies while I'm at it, it doesn't work for long. I'm snappy to everything and most of all Matthijs, who doesn't deserve it most of the time.

I really want to start a 'new life' somewhere else with new sports, hobbies etc. I'm avoiding getting involved in longer term projects here in Enschede because "I'll move soon". Taekwondo isn't satisfying anymore, but I keep doing it because my body needs some kind of exercise, bellydance is ok but Theaterobers is too unprofessional and more and more people are dropping out leaving not much for the final 'show'. I'm not even sure if I should remind my parents of that final show....

And then what... I don't expect I'll hang out more with people from (around) Utrecht when I finally live closer. I mean, I've got friends here in Enschede too but that doesn't mean that I visit them on a regular basis. It's not really in my nature. (wasn't in my nature at grade school either)

The non-LARPing is bugging me too. I like to sew costumes, but if there's nowhere I can or will wear them, what's the point? Still, I can't say that I'm attracted to any LARP setting at the moment. Perhaps I'll take a look at living history when we've moved. Or do some volunteers work with animals, if that's available.

Bluh. Just bluh!