Last Monday we got the results from the auditions of the week before. I did audition for the Wicked Witch of the West. Alas, didn't get that one. Brigitte and Larissa get to play the Siamese twin Witch, though they have to convince the director that two heads is better than one.

Was I disappointed about not becoming the Witch? A bit. But I found the Siamese version hilarious so I wish Bri and Larissa lots of luck and fun with the part. However I was sorely disappointed that I did not get my second or even third choice. Apparently Toto was given to Pieter from the first day of this new season. So I could've skipped that one while making my top three... And I didn't get one of the energetic by roles either. Say WHAT?!?

So what did I get? I got the 'tin man'. Yes, it is one of the leads, why should I be disappointed, right? Well, because I explicitly stated in my top three that the Wicked Witch was the only lead role that I could take seriously. I didn't (still don't) see much in the other lead roles. So hearing my name, followed by 'tin man' was quite a shock. Made worse by the director tactlessly adding 'nobody else wanted this role. Somebody has got to do it'. Say WHAT?!? I get a left over role? That's IT?!

Then we had a break to mingle and chat about the casting. I broke down and cried after three people asked me 'are you happy with the tin man'. I was tired from the Moots and so very disappointed. The 'somebody has to do it' had hit hard. So I fled from the kitchen to a staircase where Matthijs brought me my abandoned tea. He tried to put perspective on things and I just cried. I felt like a grade school kid again, damn it!

After I dried my tears and went back to the break room the director came to me and apologized for her impolitic words, she hadn't meant it like that. The reason I got this role was that I'm a strong player, able to do anything, and she needed a strong player for this part. She had seen me play the tin man once (when we were just getting familiar with the script, switching roles once in a while) and apparently I made an impression then. Aside from that she had once played the part and thought that everybody would like this role because she knows what fun it can be. After Su had her say her partner Dorien came to me to hug me and tell me how glad she is to have me besides her (she's the Scarecrow). It made me feel a bit better and I was able to clean myself up a bit and participate in the rest of the evening.

I'm still a bit set back by all this and I truly hope we'll make something special out of the tin man. After last year in the baggy cleaning outfit I wanted a somewhat more flattering costume. I really do not want to become a walking cat food can... Oh, and did I mention that the song of the tin man is AWFUL?! "Lubricate my joints...that feels so good".. right...

Well, we'll see what we'll make of it. Now I need to rehearse my belly dance performance once more (already did about 10 times today) and think about what outfit to wear. Oh, and get something to eat and rinse out the wool that I've been dyeing today.