...oh so pretty, I'm so pretty and witty and gay*. * Meaning 'happy' in this case.... song text from West Side Story. And here's why I feel that way:

When I look in the mirror I see a slim woman. Nice shapes.
• I feel fit.
• When I look at the videos my mom made at the belly dance performance January 17th I am very proud of how I look and dance.
• Last Friday I got a second set of earring holes in my ears. Felt really weird to decide to get them without consulting anybody (mom, is it ok if I..?) :p
• I got some new fun shirts (t-shirts with funny texts) and they fit nicely. I even look slim in the light blue one.
• Yesterday I ordered a new pair of pants, hopefully they will sit a bit tighter on me than all the other pants I currently own. I also ordered a knitted dress and fake leather leggings. Those leggings are meant for my Amersical character, but if they look and fit ok I might wear them under said dress (if that fits too). Now for some nice heels to go with it all...
• Last Friday I dressed up for a birthday party and got a lot of compliments about my look. I think I should dress up more often.
• I can walk on heels for more than 15 minutes. I even wore them for a whole evening without trouble. Loosing some 13 kilograms of body weight makes all the difference.

I'm currently still/again at 70,5 kg. I have touched the 69 but then the EE weekend happened and the Monday after that I was back at 72. Some strict dieting (and body processes) got me back to 71 on the Friday, but man was I disappointed in myself. Directly after that we had Amersical rehearsal weekend. I got myself a salad instead of going with the fries that were planned for dinner. Good thing I did that, I was the only one with a decent meal that evening. Of course resisting the snacks was rather hard. I substituted the yellow M&Ms with dates and tangerines, but it was difficult. Rest of the week saw me hardcore dieting again (below 1500 calories a day even) but I only lost 0,5 kg.

There was a time that I was aiming for 65 kg, but now I think I should try to stay around 70, seeing how much effort it costs to get below that. Perhaps this is where my body should be and frankly, when I look in the mirror I'm rather happy with how I look. Matthijs has joked that he'd need to 'stop me' or soon there would be nothing left of me. Of course there's still some fat on my belly that I'd rather loose, but that is not how it works. Everything is getting smaller and, in all my vanity, I do not want to loose more in the chest area. ;-) So, if I manage to loose more weight and drop just below 70 that would be nice, but if I don't and don't gain any weight I'd be happy too. I measured my waist yesterday (smallest part of upper body): 74 cm. That has been 86 at some point!