So, for the 20th year of existence for Parnassos I participated in a belly dance performance. Performing 5 times in one week (10-13 December); it was great! We had a varying amount of audience (from 0 to up to 50 people I think) but a lot of fun.

On the left the end pose of my solo. On the right our group (minus one, she fell sick on the last day) in our blue-and-gold costumes.

And I find myself unemployed, since I quit my job. It feels really weird, since I haven't found anything new yet and am just 'sitting at home'. I applied to 3 jobs so far: mail delivery person for Sandd (no neighbourhoods near me), something temporary in administration via Adecco (the company tells us there is no longer a job vacancy) and at the 'chocolaterie' at V&D (no reply yet).

Aside from a parttime job I still (procastination, anyone) need to figure out what I want for my own business. Do I want to sell clothing (think I at least need to learn how to draw a pattern to measurements of other people than myself), sell other arty/crafted stuff (mini tophats, greeting cards, stuffed animals, drawings/paintings, jewelry, etc.), start a dog-walking or cat-sitting business, something else entirely?

People keep telling me that my coats are very pretty. (Oh, didn't blog about that: I made a new summer coat and a new winter coat last year). People also tell me that I dress nice (when I dress for an occasion) and that I am "so creative!", but will that buy me my daily bread? I'm full of self-doubt. Do I even want to get into setting up my own business (omg... taxes, insurances, GEDOE) or should I just be a boring 'good girl' and apply for a fulltime job in IT again because at least that pays the bills and takes care of boring stuff like said taxes and so on?

Matthijs tells me to just 'start doing things', but how do I figure out WHAT it is that I should be doing? Argh! It doesn't help that I am at a -100 on the scale of 1-10 for being ambituous or commercially inclined....

I think I'll start by sorting all my fabrics on color (so I can find stuff again) and see what I have that can be made into something worth selling. I should set up a portfolio too, with at least pictures of clothes I made for myself to show off my creativity. I've also sent mail again to Evagodiva to remind them that I would still like to work in their atelier (felt!!).

Do you think that it would work for a 30+ woman to apply for an internship at some costuming workshop? Would I want to work there (parttime)? Choices and questions...