Realizing that I wasn't going to find out a path for the rest of my life on my own, I've looked for and found some help. After a pleasant intake interview I decided to 'go for it' and scheduled my first real appointment (with homework) on the 27th of this month. We are going to find out what my strengths and weaknesses are and what would make me happy in a job. Of what I am looking for in a job. And then we're going to narrow down to fields of work that would suit me. We'll be at it for over a month and it will cost me up to near 1000 euros but I rather put that money into something useful (I'll have to work for nearly 40 years of my life yet, it better be something I like) than keep in on my bank account for the Belastingdienst (taxes) to eventually find...

Having taken this step gives me so much peace of mind. I no longer hear the nagging at the back of my head; "why aren't you working, you're not making money, make yourself useful!" I'm going to get somewhere and I am not in a hurry. So there's time for what I would like to do (crocheting stuff, at the moment) and what needs to be done (costumes for Xenophobia, a website for a new larp that's coming up) without me worrying that I am not going through pages and pages of job openings. There's not much use in applying for a job now while I'm trying to find out what I should be looking for. My savings will get me through this period of unemployment easily. Let's enjoy it then!

Lots of nice stuff to look forward to; balfolk stage, concert of Marike Jager, another Sibbe Sunday (hopefully without rain), mission-weekend with EE, rehearsal weekend with Amersical. My weekends are filled up until 7/8th of March. But now, I'm off for dinner and then belly dancing in Utrecht.