It has been decided. I'm continuing belly dancing on Tuesday and taking freestyle jazz lessons on Thursday. Alas, we were not motivated enough to cycle 30 minutes to the Twentehallen for 1,5 hour of ji do kwan and then cycle 30 minutes back again. And I really wanted to dance, but 4 evenings sport in a week is too much. So, I have 2 sports again but Matthijs still has none....

Our combined birthday was fun. There was exactly 1 larper present (thanks for coming Jojo!) and lots of ex-Musili. Nine people in total, spread over the day. The first one arriving at about 14:45 and the last two at 21:30. We received lots of booze (one of them is purple!), money, a wire rack for cooling pie, earrings and a small fantasy cookbook.

My mood has improved so I'm not down anymore. However, the problems are still there. The feeling I don't have real friends, that I have no goal in this life/world (I can't answer the question "in an ideal world I would...") and the unhappiness with my job are still there. There's no satisfaction in making projects almost nobody uses, and then hearing that the interface you made is apparently 'the problem'... yeah, right. Where are the user-tests to prove it? As long as I don't really think about all of it I'm happy enough... still, this has to change some time. Finding out what I actually want from life would be a huge help.

We had a bit of an upside down moment last Sunday. My mom and her partner have had some financial set backs. Actually they have had all kinds of set backs the past year and now through a fault of the energy company they had to skip a nice weekend away to pay the bills. It's not overly dramatic; they won't go hungry or something or get put out of their house, but I thought they really deserved and could use the weekend away. So I gave them a large sum of money to have a nice weekend with.

Normally its the children asking their parents for money and support. This time it was the other way around. Although they never asked for it! It was completely my initiative. I love my mother very much and hope that one day I'll be as strong as she is, this gift felt as a good way to show my love. They just really deserve it.

Upcoming plans (unordered):

• Making the tent fabric food/wood tent before the upcoming Moots
• Finally find out how to work with my serger and start some new sewing projects
• Choose one or two patterns and make my own prehistoric-ish leather shoes
• I'd like to start card making and drawing/painting again
• Finishing my Taboe costume
• Buy dance sneakers
• Turning the f*cked up winter coat mock up into a summer coat to replace the one that is coming apart and to just get this project over with
• Finish the 1000 pieces puzzle and hang it in our living room